Its now been 5 days since Maison was born. I'm falling deeply in love with him more and more every minute. I'm not kidding. No one can tell you what it's really like. And I didn't expect these feelings to spread through me on a daily basis.
I've seen my friends with their kids and never understood the connection between parents and child.
I never stopped to think about my Mum or my Dads connection they have with me and my 2 sisters.
My Mum, and Dad still worry for us kids. Still love us when we disappoint. Laugh at our stupid jokes and put up with our bullshit.
I'm only at the beginning of this journey. Right now all I feel is love, and concern that I have to be the best dad I can be. it's interesting at the moment cause Maison just needs his beautiful Mama it seems. All I can do is be there for her and love him as gently as I can. But I love changing those nappies(they're not to smelly yet)and putting him onto his Mama for feeding. Thats my job at the moment.
And thats cool I've realized. Ego aye?
Yes I felt helpless and useless to start with. I felt that he doesn't know me or care yet.
But then I played the Guitar and he starts looking at me and falls asleep in his Mums arms(maybe he got bored?)
I guess I'm saying that Dads may find that they can't control everything when they are a new parent. Cause thats what we men like to do right?
This is a time for us to take a step back and support. Thats the thing to do. I understand that. Just.
Anyway Maison is starting to rally groove into a routine now. We are starting to understand the signs.
Hungry NOW! sleepy. nappy change please. HUNGRY! sleepy etc.
Day 5. what a great day.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Maison Akira Clarke
Maison was born at 12.49pm on the 25/01/2011. Rugby World Cup year.
He was 3.14kg and really healthy.
It was an amazing, overwhelming experience for me as a dad watching maison being born.
Yuka, my Wife, was a Japanese Warrior at birth.
People see her as this small Japanese women, but she would put most men i know to shame
when it comes to real strength and grit in getting one of the most intense things a human being can do.
Obviously giving birth.
No drugs were asked for. No complaints made. She just did pushed.
What most of us don't think about when it comes to women giving birth is the hours upon hours of painful contractions they have to endure.
The "mild" ones she was having would have sent me to the closest drug dealer as soon as possible.
And when it came time to really push and get Maison out, well she just did it. Of course it was bloody painful. And she was very weak afterwards. But man I love her more now than I ever did before.
To see your wife do that is something scary and beautiful all in one.
When Maison's head came out Yuka started laughing with joy. Me? I weeped my arse off.
I could see my son coming into this world and life is never going to be the same.
I new this. I was scared, but optimistic about the future.
The reason being is because I didn't think I would have a future before I met Yuka Kitane(now Clarke).
And now we have a baby boy.
Live is trippy.
He was 3.14kg and really healthy.
It was an amazing, overwhelming experience for me as a dad watching maison being born.
Yuka, my Wife, was a Japanese Warrior at birth.
People see her as this small Japanese women, but she would put most men i know to shame
when it comes to real strength and grit in getting one of the most intense things a human being can do.
Obviously giving birth.
No drugs were asked for. No complaints made. She just did pushed.
What most of us don't think about when it comes to women giving birth is the hours upon hours of painful contractions they have to endure.
The "mild" ones she was having would have sent me to the closest drug dealer as soon as possible.
And when it came time to really push and get Maison out, well she just did it. Of course it was bloody painful. And she was very weak afterwards. But man I love her more now than I ever did before.
To see your wife do that is something scary and beautiful all in one.
When Maison's head came out Yuka started laughing with joy. Me? I weeped my arse off.
I could see my son coming into this world and life is never going to be the same.
I new this. I was scared, but optimistic about the future.
The reason being is because I didn't think I would have a future before I met Yuka Kitane(now Clarke).
And now we have a baby boy.
Live is trippy.
Friday, September 24, 2010
23 weeks
well its been a few weeks since we posted last and my god things move
along fast.
Yuka is glowing. She looks beautiful. There's nothing more sacred and
beautiful than a pregnant women.
Its a wonderful thing isn't it?
The idea of being a dad is really starting to sink in.
I have so many hopes for our kid. So many ideas.
But at the end of the day all i can really hope for is that our kid has every oppurtunity
to make its life full and wondrous.
And healthy.
of course.
Till next time, oyasumi.
along fast.
Yuka is glowing. She looks beautiful. There's nothing more sacred and
beautiful than a pregnant women.
Its a wonderful thing isn't it?
The idea of being a dad is really starting to sink in.
I have so many hopes for our kid. So many ideas.
But at the end of the day all i can really hope for is that our kid has every oppurtunity
to make its life full and wondrous.
And healthy.
of course.
Till next time, oyasumi.
Friday, July 30, 2010
15 weeks
Saturday, 31/07/2010.
Well we are at the 15 week stage of our pregnancy now. Yuka is really healthy and happy.
It just blows my mind that we are going to be parents. We just don't know what to expect
when the time comes for LC to enter this world.
People tell you things of course but they also say the only way to know it, is to
experience it.
All I know is that I want to be the best dad possible. Yuks is a natural nurturer. She will
be an amazing Mum.
One thing that makes me happy is that our baby is going to be born here, in NZ,
the year of the rugby world cup.
Lives great.
I love it.
thats me for today.
cc
Well we are at the 15 week stage of our pregnancy now. Yuka is really healthy and happy.
It just blows my mind that we are going to be parents. We just don't know what to expect
when the time comes for LC to enter this world.
People tell you things of course but they also say the only way to know it, is to
experience it.
All I know is that I want to be the best dad possible. Yuks is a natural nurturer. She will
be an amazing Mum.
One thing that makes me happy is that our baby is going to be born here, in NZ,
the year of the rugby world cup.
Lives great.
I love it.
thats me for today.
cc
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Family
toshiko, yuka and craig.
They just got back from Auckland.
yoshinobu, craig and toshiko.
Enjoying a morning coffee.
Our first meeting. Absolutely amazing time.
Friday, July 9, 2010
12weeks in the life of LC
Here's LC at 12 weeks. Its amazing and beautiful. Yuka and I (cc) are so happy. It just blows my mind. cc and yuka. Mum and Dad
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