Its now been 5 days since Maison was born. I'm falling deeply in love with him more and more every minute. I'm not kidding. No one can tell you what it's really like. And I didn't expect these feelings to spread through me on a daily basis.
I've seen my friends with their kids and never understood the connection between parents and child.
I never stopped to think about my Mum or my Dads connection they have with me and my 2 sisters.
My Mum, and Dad still worry for us kids. Still love us when we disappoint. Laugh at our stupid jokes and put up with our bullshit.
I'm only at the beginning of this journey. Right now all I feel is love, and concern that I have to be the best dad I can be. it's interesting at the moment cause Maison just needs his beautiful Mama it seems. All I can do is be there for her and love him as gently as I can. But I love changing those nappies(they're not to smelly yet)and putting him onto his Mama for feeding. Thats my job at the moment.
And thats cool I've realized. Ego aye?
Yes I felt helpless and useless to start with. I felt that he doesn't know me or care yet.
But then I played the Guitar and he starts looking at me and falls asleep in his Mums arms(maybe he got bored?)
I guess I'm saying that Dads may find that they can't control everything when they are a new parent. Cause thats what we men like to do right?
This is a time for us to take a step back and support. Thats the thing to do. I understand that. Just.
Anyway Maison is starting to rally groove into a routine now. We are starting to understand the signs.
Hungry NOW! sleepy. nappy change please. HUNGRY! sleepy etc.
Day 5. what a great day.
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